This was written 3/11 and never posted.. My how things have changed and yet... they stay the same.. it is now 5/19 and I am cleaning up mostly because Andrea comes to visit on Thursday.. SMH
This morning, I woke to a clear kitchen counter. I am not shocked at how I liked it. I am frustrated at myself for not making the effort - such small efforts - to make myself feel peaceful and happy. I do this for other people - I clean my house up or my classroom up for other people! I am flabbergast. Other people don't get the peaceful feeling; they do no live there. And in all actuality, they really don't care. People who love me don't judge, and people who don't love me usually are not invited in... So why then do I get the compulsion to straighten when others are visiting my classroom, but I do not make the time to do a 5 minute room rescue or a 10 minute tidy? Those 5 to 10 minutes that i dread are actually some of the best spent minutes in my day. I waste at least that playing on my phone.
I am setting an alarm right now to remind me to spend 5 minutes to tidy my classroom before I leave at the end of the day. I think my home reminder will have to be thought through more. I know myself and if I change my clothes or start to relax nothing gets done. I may need to have a reminder when I am home to do a 10 minute tidy. I don't seem to want to do it before I go to bed.
This morning, I woke to a clear kitchen counter. I am not shocked at how I liked it. I am frustrated at myself for not making the effort - such small efforts - to make myself feel peaceful and happy. I do this for other people - I clean my house up or my classroom up for other people! I am flabbergast. Other people don't get the peaceful feeling; they do no live there. And in all actuality, they really don't care. People who love me don't judge, and people who don't love me usually are not invited in... So why then do I get the compulsion to straighten when others are visiting my classroom, but I do not make the time to do a 5 minute room rescue or a 10 minute tidy? Those 5 to 10 minutes that i dread are actually some of the best spent minutes in my day. I waste at least that playing on my phone.
I am setting an alarm right now to remind me to spend 5 minutes to tidy my classroom before I leave at the end of the day. I think my home reminder will have to be thought through more. I know myself and if I change my clothes or start to relax nothing gets done. I may need to have a reminder when I am home to do a 10 minute tidy. I don't seem to want to do it before I go to bed.
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